I've started reading Sloane Crosley's, I Was Told There'd Be Cake, and got to thinking about my own random collections. As kids we all collect stuff. Younger kids collect rocks, Pokemon cards, Barbies, stickers, or in my youngest daughter's case, traffic cones. As humans morph into teens, the collections change into chapstick, music, Magic Cards, trophies, or paraphernalia relating to a certain movie star and movie, in our house, it was Johnny Depp as Captain Jack Sparrow and everything related to Pirates.
But as an adult, what sort of odd collections do we tend to accumulate? What would you be a little more than embarrassed to have some family relative come through your home to find? Is it a stash of extra shoelaces? You know how they almost always give you two pairs of laces with shoes now, do you save those, just in case? Maybe, you have a whole drawer in your dresser dedicated to all those extra shoelaces.
I was going to say as I get older, but I don't get older, I am forever 23 in my head. My body needs to get the message, it seems on fast forward, but that is a different story. I have collected different things over the years, but the mainstay always return to purses. They are impulses that I can't seem to quite get a grip on. I go looking for these things. Do I need them? No, most certainly not in 99.9% of the purchases. Will I use them? That is more like a 50-50 thing. Do I want them? Absolutely!
I have purses stashed, under the bed, in the coat closet, in my closet, and in my craft room. There is no way I will possibly use all of them. I have purses that I have never even used, but had to have. I have people giving me purses, I can't possibly say no to, so I smile, take them and say thank you very much. I am not the type of girl who changes her purse for every outing, season, or reason. So, what is my preoccupation with them? I can't honestly say. I just like having them, somehow it makes me feel more feminine, and I like the thrill of the hunt for the best deal.
I love finding a great purse at the consignment store or at Salvation Army for a ridiculously low price. I have found Vera Bradley at Salvation Army for $2.00! It was in immaculate condition, how could I possibly leave it there for someone who might not appreciate it? I HAD to have it! The softness, the pockets, Oh My! And then there was the bright red Coach bag at the consignment store for $20. An unused Coach bag, tag inside and everything for $20! The leather was so soft, the pockets and pouches and shiny metal. I don't typically pay that much for a purse, but this was a Coach, so I made an exception, and justified with making the Dean's list on my first semester back to school after a 20 year hiatus.
I love to come home with my new found purse, and strut my stuff to my family. Who laugh at me, shake their heads and ask what I am going to do with all the other ones I have stashed around the house. I pretend I don't hear them. Instead, I clean out the old purse, and begin cherishing the new one, organizing my belongings.and leaving the old one on the dining room table for a day or two before trying to find a space for my old friend. I can't give it away, it has served me well. We have shared many experiences, found many a great deals. The likelihood of me retrieving it for use in the future? Well, um, uh...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Monday, August 29, 2011
Alabama Adventures
This past weekend, we had the opportunity to be warned and prepared for a possible natural disaster. We had time to gather the necessary items and were braced for the worst case scenario. Although, the most that occurred in our immediate area were a few downed limbs and small power outages. We had warning, we were prepared and we survived perhaps the dullest hurricane warning in a long time.
However, this was not the case for five southern states this past April. A tornado watch suddenly appeared., alerting residents to the possible dangers that were unpredictably speeding towards them. Tornadoes do not necessarily follow a direct path as our hurricane or nor'easters tend to do. These people did not have a lot of notice to prepare themselves, gather their information, loved ones, food, gas, batteries and so on.
I watched the news, and was saddened by what I saw once the news crews could get the images out to the nation. What increased my sorrow however was the seemingly lack of response for assistance, compassion, and volunteerism towards our own countrymen. True, Osama bin Laden was captured, the was a tsunami in Japan, and the Royal Wedding that made headlines shortly after the tornadoes. But there were still people without homes, clothing, food, and loved ones to bury in our own country. FEMA appeared as did the insurance companies and Red Cross at first, the agencies do no stay long, nor is their assistance generous. The majority of Americans were burnt out on charity it appeared.
I connected with groups based in Alabama who were assisting people in the disaster cleanup and restoration. The larger cities were fairing better than the smaller towns. The smaller towns, as we well know, do not have the budget to deal with large catastrophes. I followed what was going on for four months until I could fly down there myself and give my time and labor to help these people rebuild. On August 10th, I landed in Birmingham, Alabama, as my plane taxied the runway to the terminal, I saw a building that looked like a Salvador Dali painting, but it was real. It was torn in half, and the pieces that remained looked as if they were slowly melting in the southern sun.
It was just the beginning of eye opening week long experience in the Heart of Dixie. As I drove to my hotel, I saw a tall highway lamppost that had been pulled up, twisted as though through a metal roller, and deposited on the grass area of the freeway. As I settled into my hotel and explored my surroundings, I felt at ease. Southern hospitality includes friendliness, good manners, courteousness, humbleness and a genteelness that seems to make encounters with others very pleasant.
The next day, I contacted Andrea Pate, who headed up the Freewill Baptist Disaster Relief in Cordova, Alabama. She told me to come right on over, and she could put me to work. I drove through the town, the entire downtown section of Cordova had been lifted up and put down again, in a way that would not allow for rebuilding. The small businesses were closed, and the buildings would have to be imploded upon themselves. The grocery store in this small town was demolished, as was the bank, gas station and police station. The nearest places for these people to get services was 16 miles north in Jasper. The bank vault is all that remained standing of the bank, and the bank moved into a trailer type of facility, as did the police station. Many homes were removed from their foundations, or roofs torn off, large trees on top of houses, leaving many families homeless.
When I met Andrea, I found a woman on a mission. Her home was not destroyed, but she was determined to help out her fellow citizens, and rebuild life in the town of Cordova. She came up with the idea to take homes that were abandoned in the town, contact the owners, and negotiate a remodel in exchange for one years free rent for tornado survivors. After which time, it would be up to the owner and the tenant to negotiate an agreement. She sent me out to one home to work with another group of volunteers who had come down from Connecticut to chip away mortar from the cinder blocks of a destroyed garage to take to another site for another project. It was hard, tedious work. But it was meaningful and rewarding also. The next day, I showed up a little better prepared. I purchased some tools the night before at WalMart. Again, I chipped away mortar, this time on bricks from a crumbled chimney to be used as a walkway for another home that was almost completed. As Andrea became too busy to remember what she had me doing, I began loading the bricks into the trunk of my rental car, and moving them over to the house, small loads at a time until I had completed the brick walkway. Another day, I helped move 2x10's so the roofers could cover roof of the historic landmark in town, and preserve it from being further damaged. Another day, I went to Pratt City, and volunteered with a group called the Alabama Bloggers. Again, an online connection. We helped people get food, clothing, personal care and house cleaning items.
I met many wonderful people during my adventure, heard stories that will stay with me a lifetime, had a lot of good laughs, shed some tears, and lots of hugs. My hope in sharing this story is that we will all realize that one person can make a difference. Whether it is local or not, if your heart is tugging at you to reach out, listen and stretch yourself. You will have an amazing experience.
Monday, August 1, 2011
Conquering Fears
Fears are usually related to one to two things. No, make that three.
One, there is a reason why you have that fear. For example, you might be afraid of dogs because you have been bitten or badly frightened by a dog in your past. This is an understandable and rational fear that can be overcome with time and effort.
Second reason for fear is you don't know that particular dog, it is big and it is black. Which recalls some story or movie that you have seen that big, black strange dogs are ravaging creatures who eat people just because they can. This automatically triggers fear, which is a little irrational, but it is fear nonetheless and can paralyze you if you allow it that power, or you can choose to take charge in that situation and open yourself up to the reality of the present moment; which is neither a work of fiction or a film.
Thirdly, fear can be attributed to the unknown. You have never seen this sort of dog, and are unaware of their behavior traits, therefore you are unsure as to how well they respond to new people. This third type of fear is validated, and does call for caution and investigation. This requires active participation and interaction. It is perhaps the most challenging type of fear to overcome for most people.
This weekend, I conquered my fear of the riding lawn mower. This may not sound like a big deal to a lot of people, however, for me, it was. Fifteen years ago, when we moved into the house, my husband brought home a riding lawn mower. We live on just under an acre of property, and I grew up in the suburbs in California, which has a considerably less property size lot than the suburbs of Massachusetts. Trying to channel into my old tomboy days, I started up the mower, having no clue how to operate it, and promptly crashed it into the garage door. No real damage was done, other than my ego being very bruised. For the next 15 years, my husband has told everyone that story when they comment on the lawnmower. He taught all three of our kids how to use it, but told me I was forbidden, in case I crashed it again. So, this weekend, while he was gone, I decided it was now or never.
I watched a YouTube video on how to start up the mower properly, went out to the shed and rolled the mighty fearful machine out onto the lawn. Safe from running into anything, just in case things got away from me in a hurry. Recalling the details of the video, I followed the directions completely. The next thing I knew, I was mowing the back yard, and I did a fine job, if I say so myself. I rolled into the front and finished that too. Afterward, I stood there looking at the mower which had intimidated me to 15 years and laughed. I did it! I conquered the lawnmower and faced my fear of going anywhere near it. I do feel stronger and more independent as a result.
Earlier this summer, I faced and conquered another fear. I submitted a piece of my writing to a contest held by the Carve Magazine. As a writer, exposing your work, even on a blogging level, is in an essence exposing yourself, leaving you feeling very vulnerable. Personally, I do not know anyone who likes the feeling of vulnerability. That arena of uncertainty, risk, fear of failure or rejection is not a comfortable place to be. I pulled out a story that I had been working on for a few months, dusted it off, polished it up, named it, and formatted it according to the guidelines of the contest. And just like that, I submitted it. I had put it in the back of my mind, until this morning when on my Twitter account, I read "We're getting close to wrapping up our first round readings for the contest. Some notices will go out beginning mid-August."
Again, comes up a rush of emotions, but not fear, this time it is more like anticipation, excitement, curiosity and hope. A lot like a small child at Christmastime, wondering and hoping that Santa will bring them exactly what they have wished for in their heart. In my case, I am very hopeful for first place. But if I don't get it, that is okay, because I have taken the first scary step of submitting my work, and I am not afraid to do it again. I now know how, and it isn't that hard.
As Evelyn Couch, in Fried Green Tomatoes, said when taking her first swing with her sledge hammer to knock down a wall that needed moving "Towonda!" Find your inner strength and conquer those inhibitions, if I can do it, so can you!
Hoping you discover new found strength and peace,
Cindy
One, there is a reason why you have that fear. For example, you might be afraid of dogs because you have been bitten or badly frightened by a dog in your past. This is an understandable and rational fear that can be overcome with time and effort.
Second reason for fear is you don't know that particular dog, it is big and it is black. Which recalls some story or movie that you have seen that big, black strange dogs are ravaging creatures who eat people just because they can. This automatically triggers fear, which is a little irrational, but it is fear nonetheless and can paralyze you if you allow it that power, or you can choose to take charge in that situation and open yourself up to the reality of the present moment; which is neither a work of fiction or a film.
Thirdly, fear can be attributed to the unknown. You have never seen this sort of dog, and are unaware of their behavior traits, therefore you are unsure as to how well they respond to new people. This third type of fear is validated, and does call for caution and investigation. This requires active participation and interaction. It is perhaps the most challenging type of fear to overcome for most people.
This weekend, I conquered my fear of the riding lawn mower. This may not sound like a big deal to a lot of people, however, for me, it was. Fifteen years ago, when we moved into the house, my husband brought home a riding lawn mower. We live on just under an acre of property, and I grew up in the suburbs in California, which has a considerably less property size lot than the suburbs of Massachusetts. Trying to channel into my old tomboy days, I started up the mower, having no clue how to operate it, and promptly crashed it into the garage door. No real damage was done, other than my ego being very bruised. For the next 15 years, my husband has told everyone that story when they comment on the lawnmower. He taught all three of our kids how to use it, but told me I was forbidden, in case I crashed it again. So, this weekend, while he was gone, I decided it was now or never.
I watched a YouTube video on how to start up the mower properly, went out to the shed and rolled the mighty fearful machine out onto the lawn. Safe from running into anything, just in case things got away from me in a hurry. Recalling the details of the video, I followed the directions completely. The next thing I knew, I was mowing the back yard, and I did a fine job, if I say so myself. I rolled into the front and finished that too. Afterward, I stood there looking at the mower which had intimidated me to 15 years and laughed. I did it! I conquered the lawnmower and faced my fear of going anywhere near it. I do feel stronger and more independent as a result.
Earlier this summer, I faced and conquered another fear. I submitted a piece of my writing to a contest held by the Carve Magazine. As a writer, exposing your work, even on a blogging level, is in an essence exposing yourself, leaving you feeling very vulnerable. Personally, I do not know anyone who likes the feeling of vulnerability. That arena of uncertainty, risk, fear of failure or rejection is not a comfortable place to be. I pulled out a story that I had been working on for a few months, dusted it off, polished it up, named it, and formatted it according to the guidelines of the contest. And just like that, I submitted it. I had put it in the back of my mind, until this morning when on my Twitter account, I read "We're getting close to wrapping up our first round readings for the contest. Some notices will go out beginning mid-August."
Again, comes up a rush of emotions, but not fear, this time it is more like anticipation, excitement, curiosity and hope. A lot like a small child at Christmastime, wondering and hoping that Santa will bring them exactly what they have wished for in their heart. In my case, I am very hopeful for first place. But if I don't get it, that is okay, because I have taken the first scary step of submitting my work, and I am not afraid to do it again. I now know how, and it isn't that hard.
As Evelyn Couch, in Fried Green Tomatoes, said when taking her first swing with her sledge hammer to knock down a wall that needed moving "Towonda!" Find your inner strength and conquer those inhibitions, if I can do it, so can you!
Hoping you discover new found strength and peace,
Cindy
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Honing In On Intuition
A lot of people discredit that small still voice that nudges them along. Sometimes, being afraid of taking the risk of failing, or looking the fool, or being wrong altogether are the reasons that the quiet voice is pushed aside. We have been trained that bigger is better. The squeaky wheel gets oiled, therefore if it is not a totally brilliant idea where a lot of people are encouraging and pushing you along, we tend to discount quiet still voice that is gently prodding us to expand our horizons.
It is scary to take a step of faith for something that may or may not work out. That is what life experience is for, trying new things. Going on hunches, having adventures, believing in something enough to see it through even when you don't have overwhelming support. I am not very technically minded, but that does not mean that I don't appreciate the technology that we have today. That very technology phones, computers, internet, television, and the ever handy gps are products of people who have gone on hunches and ideas. Nikola Tesla, Thomas Edison, Alexander Graham Bell were the early pioneers that took their ideas, and people thought them crazy and eccentric, and these men proved them wrong. Now the modern pioneers are still looked at as odd balls, but they are odd balls living pretty comfortably. Steve Jobs, James Auger and Jimmy Loizeau invented the phone tooth, or how about Dr. Joseph Rizzo and Professor John Wyatt - haven't heard of them? Well, they invented the microelectronic retinal implant to restore vision to patients with age-related macular degeneration and blindness.
These people all started out with an idea and they followed it through. The idea is often intuition, leading, guiding, and prodding. It is not loud, does not shout, it is not rude. We all fail sometimes, that is part of life. It is not fun, it is not glorious, but it is learning and teaching us what does not work, often times giving us a better idea of what does work. The key to honing in on your intuition, is to let yourself be quiet, let yourself play, allow yourself to explore, and put aside what others think or say. "You can't please all the people all the time" Abe Lincoln has been quoted, and he is right. Be true to your inner voice, get advice, weigh it and check it and if it gives peace to your soul, follow it.
What are your dreams, your inspirations that you have cast off and put aside because someone said that wasn't a good idea? Do they still hold a spot in your mind and heart? Take a chance, life is too short not to. Have you ever noticed that old people rarely regret the things they did, only the things that they didn't do? Listen to your intuition, often times it will lead you down the road of happiness.
It is scary to take a step of faith for something that may or may not work out. That is what life experience is for, trying new things. Going on hunches, having adventures, believing in something enough to see it through even when you don't have overwhelming support. I am not very technically minded, but that does not mean that I don't appreciate the technology that we have today. That very technology phones, computers, internet, television, and the ever handy gps are products of people who have gone on hunches and ideas. Nikola Tesla, Thomas Edison, Alexander Graham Bell were the early pioneers that took their ideas, and people thought them crazy and eccentric, and these men proved them wrong. Now the modern pioneers are still looked at as odd balls, but they are odd balls living pretty comfortably. Steve Jobs, James Auger and Jimmy Loizeau invented the phone tooth, or how about Dr. Joseph Rizzo and Professor John Wyatt - haven't heard of them? Well, they invented the microelectronic retinal implant to restore vision to patients with age-related macular degeneration and blindness.
These people all started out with an idea and they followed it through. The idea is often intuition, leading, guiding, and prodding. It is not loud, does not shout, it is not rude. We all fail sometimes, that is part of life. It is not fun, it is not glorious, but it is learning and teaching us what does not work, often times giving us a better idea of what does work. The key to honing in on your intuition, is to let yourself be quiet, let yourself play, allow yourself to explore, and put aside what others think or say. "You can't please all the people all the time" Abe Lincoln has been quoted, and he is right. Be true to your inner voice, get advice, weigh it and check it and if it gives peace to your soul, follow it.
What are your dreams, your inspirations that you have cast off and put aside because someone said that wasn't a good idea? Do they still hold a spot in your mind and heart? Take a chance, life is too short not to. Have you ever noticed that old people rarely regret the things they did, only the things that they didn't do? Listen to your intuition, often times it will lead you down the road of happiness.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Wanderlust
I just finished reading Jodi Piccolt's book, Songs of the Humpback Whale, a story about a family in a crisis and how they attempt to work through it all. It is an interesting story in several ways, perhaps the one facet that really captured my attention however was the road trip across the United States. I have had the urge to road trip since April, it is beckoning to me, calling my name, compelling me to adventure.
I have never been in one place, one home, so long in my entire life as I have been in Massachusetts. As a child, we moved several times. I have lived in many states, the least favorite of all was Louisiana, too hot, too humid and way too many alligators. Not that it didn't have positives as well, I just don't want to live there again, but I wouldn't mind visiting, the food is amazing.
I am missing the newness, the discovery, the change of plants and trees, local mannerisms, hearing different types of accents. I am missing having new threads of experience added to the tapestry of who I am. With the recent purchase of a used iPod, I have discovered Apple Apps one of which is called Explorer. Explorer takes your location and then branches out with in certain radius permimeters to show you different things around you that you may not have known about. I have learned there is a castle near by that I never knew about. Today, I am going exploring locally, throwing a cookie to my wanderlust. Maybe soon I will get the opportunity to hit the open road and take a longer trip.
I have never been in one place, one home, so long in my entire life as I have been in Massachusetts. As a child, we moved several times. I have lived in many states, the least favorite of all was Louisiana, too hot, too humid and way too many alligators. Not that it didn't have positives as well, I just don't want to live there again, but I wouldn't mind visiting, the food is amazing.
I am missing the newness, the discovery, the change of plants and trees, local mannerisms, hearing different types of accents. I am missing having new threads of experience added to the tapestry of who I am. With the recent purchase of a used iPod, I have discovered Apple Apps one of which is called Explorer. Explorer takes your location and then branches out with in certain radius permimeters to show you different things around you that you may not have known about. I have learned there is a castle near by that I never knew about. Today, I am going exploring locally, throwing a cookie to my wanderlust. Maybe soon I will get the opportunity to hit the open road and take a longer trip.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Miacles are still happening in 2011
Yes.
Miracles are still happening in 2011.
I can boldly state that as a fact, because I have experienced it first hand. I am not what the church would call a good Christian. I admit that. In fact, I have a problem with organized religion as an entity. However, I am a spiritual person who does have a deep faith in God, goodness, love, mercy, honesty, integrity, and peace. I try to stay as positive as possible, avoid negativity - not skepticism, they are different; more on that later, and lead my life so that I have to make as few apologies as necessary.
A year ago, I was hurt at work. I was doing social case work for adults with mental disabilities who live independently in the community at the time. The particular individual I was assisting at the time of the injury was person that do too great in high school, but proceeded to make bad choices as he became an adult and had destroyed what hope he did have of a simple, but normal life by snorting cocaine and frying his brain cells until the bare minimum was left. Not a pillar of society, but not an oddity either. There are more out there than you think, trust me on this one. I was helping this individual get his groceries into his apartment and taking care of rent issues for him. As I was coming out of the apartment building, I fell coming out of the front door of the foyer.
I was seriously hurt, but couldn't leave my car and be transported by ambulance, it is not a good neighborhood. I drove myself to my office, which was empty - outside social workers are rarely at their desks. And then drove myself to the Emergency Room. I left with a sprained right ankle, sprained left foot, bruised right hand, twisted left knee, and pulled left hip. My husband had to come and get me. As I healed, it was apparent that my left knee had sustained more than twisting. I was in constant pain, no pain relievers were able to assist me.
After several doctors visits and evaluations, it was determined that I had Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, RSD for short. The prognosis is not good, hopeful or anywhere near encouraging. Essentially, you have constant burning, throbbing pain, the hair on the appendage stops growing, the nails stop growing, the temperature is different from the other appendage, it even discolors and the pain can and usually does spread. The best the doctors can offer you are either shots or anti-seizure medication. Neither of which is promised to give you complete relief or healing, but a band-aid to the pain.
Coming to terms with being in pain is one thing. Coming to terms with how it effects your life is something completely different. Everything had changed for me. Showering and getting dressed were events that I had to gear up for. Cooking for my family, grocery shopping, even going up and down the stairs were things that I had to time just right or I was in agonizing pain. My life of being a straight A student since I had returned to college a year previous to the accident was over, I could not walk the distance of the campus, I could not work any longer, gourmet cooking - a hobby I enjoyed, was over, I could not garden, ride bikes, go hiking, I had been sidelined to life.
Looking for some purpose in all of this, I watched the movie, The Secret, on Netflix. It is a documentary or rather an instructional film on finding what is the secret to life and happiness. It inspired me to look at things a little differently, to be more mindful of my thoughts, actions, and deeds. I highly recommend it to anyone stuck in a rut, discontent or a place of searching for some meaning.
A few months later, I happened to tune into the Dr. Oz show. Not a regular watcher at all, I noticed he had a faith healer on. I decided to watch the show. I was fascinated by what I heard. I have honestly never put a lot of stock into faith healers or these types of services. The skeptic in me had noted that there was never really documented proof of actual healings, someone would say their back felt better, but who really knew if they were having back problems to begin with? Not doubting, but skeptical, medical records are great proof that things have indeed improved. Dr. Issam Nemeh had several patients whom he had prayed over and these people had experienced healings. They made their records available to Dr. Oz and a team of 12+ doctors who examined the records, followed the cases and could come up with no explanations for why these people were healed of horrible ailments other than miracles. Cancer, lung diseases, fibromyalgia, and diabetes to name a few. I began to do research on Dr. Nemeh, looking for faults to be honest. Looking for scams, looking for testimonies of claiming him to be a fraud, to be something other than an authentic man of faith who had a success record of praying over people who later reported being healed. I could find nothing of the sort. Everything I found about Dr. Issam Nemeh was directed towards his humbleness that I had witness on the television show, his not professing to cure people but to have faith in God's healing powers. For hours I searched. I stopped everything that day to dig deeply and uncover some sort of negative comment, but could not. I was convinced that he, Dr. Nemeh, is authentic.
I called his office that evening, only to find that he was not taking new patients Desperate for relief from the constant pain, I purchased tickets to the soonest prayer healing service that was being held that I could. I then went to Priceline, got a fantastic deal and began looking into what I could do to make myself as ready as possible for this event. Clear up emotional, mental and physical stressors was what was on my agenda for the next month. In short, take care of me. It was not an easy task to undertake. But step by step, I did get everything cleared up before I hit the ground in Chicago.
The first day I arrived at the healing service, not really certain on what I had truly expected to witness. The skeptic in me was observing people coming in. The constant was the pain, suffering, desperation, and hope as each person held on to their ticket, making their way into the ballroom that had been reserved for the healing. I entered the room and took my seat. Shortly thereafter, Dr. Nemeh came to the podium, offered a prayer, then gave a short talk on his beliefs, his faith, and then answered questions from those in attendance. After all questions were answered, an assistant assured everyone that they would indeed have their time of prayer, please be patient, prayerful, and remain an attitude of reverence while waiting your turn. Soft music began to play, and people were called forward in a very systematically orderly fashion.
While I waited, I watched children, and those in wheelchairs go first. I noticed different responses from different people, I heard some testimonies from people whom Dr. Nemeh had prayed over previously and their remarkable experiences of healing. I went up when it was my turn, so hopeful that I would be healed from the ringing in my ears, my 16 year old Bells Palsy and RSD. The doctor came, laid his hands on my and I truly felt a moving experience. I felt a huge wave of nasuea come over me, and for the first time in my 34 years of Christian life, I was slain in the spirit. I rested in that cradling, warm embrace for awhile. I then got up and returned to my seat. I sat for the rest of the service watching the doctor pray. I could still hear my ears ringing, and my knee was still burning, so I had hope for my face. I got back to the car, pulled down the visor and saw that there was no difference. I was a disappointed, honestly. But, I knew I had the ticket for the following day. Again, the skeptic strikes, always have a plan B in case plan A doesn't work out.
The next day, I arrived at the service just before it began, and was able to meet with Dr. Nemeh personally before we entered the room. He told me that my face looked better, and I told him, thank you, but I didn't notice much difference. He said "give it time, you will see." Then I told him about my RSD and he said, "Oh, no problem, we will fix that today, you remind me when I pray over you." That day, I watched pray over a man with chronic emphysema, hooked up to oxygen and hydrogen tanks, who could not stop coughing, and then man ceased coughing. I witnessed him praying over a woman whose spine was so bent over she walked as if she was still sitting, as he prayed over her, her spine straightened out. Then, it was my turn again. The doctor looked at me and said "Are you ready?", I said "Yes", and again, I was slain in the spirit. He walked away and then came back and prayed again. I rested but a moment this time. I got up from the floor and a loud pop came from my knee. Like a balloon being popped with a sharp pin. I looked at my knee and did not notice anything different.
I walked to my car, pulled down the visor and noticed that my face was a little better, not perfect, but it was a little better. I was very tired and wanted to go back to my hotel room to take a nap. As I began driving, I became lost, a very normal event for me during the course of this trip. I checked the GPS on my phone and noticed that I was 10 minutes away from the Chicago Arboretum and decided to go. "I can hobble around for a long time", I told myself ," they don't close until 9, I can do this". I parked the car and ate some lunch, then began walking. That is when I noticed that my leg didn't hurt. Not at all. I decided to try steps, no problem! I tried inclines, my arch nemesis during the last 363 days. NO PROBLEM! Well, if you go up, you have to go down, and I did. I walked fast, I walked slow, I walked until I my feet ached and I had blisters. I could walk without my leg hurting! It was a miracle!
I drove back to the hotel and called my family - "I CAN WALK!!" I was so excited, I had some cheese and crackers for dinner, eating at the counter in my hotel room, balancing first on one foot, and then on the other. I couldn't stand it anymore, I had to go for another walk. I put on my sneakers and power walked up and over the overpass by the hotel and then another half mile before I turned around and did it all over again. My leg didn't hurt! No burning, no throbbing, no pain. None. I pranced around in some platform shoes that I had purchased in anticipation of my healing in my hotel room while I packed that night.
My family, my neighbors, my friends who have watched me for the last year were amazed when I came home and they have seen me walking. I praise God for the healing, and thank Dr. Nemeh for his faithfulness to pray without ceasing.
God is still in the miracle business. We need to share our stories and proclaim his goodness.
Wishing you peace and good health,
Cindy
Miracles are still happening in 2011.
I can boldly state that as a fact, because I have experienced it first hand. I am not what the church would call a good Christian. I admit that. In fact, I have a problem with organized religion as an entity. However, I am a spiritual person who does have a deep faith in God, goodness, love, mercy, honesty, integrity, and peace. I try to stay as positive as possible, avoid negativity - not skepticism, they are different; more on that later, and lead my life so that I have to make as few apologies as necessary.
A year ago, I was hurt at work. I was doing social case work for adults with mental disabilities who live independently in the community at the time. The particular individual I was assisting at the time of the injury was person that do too great in high school, but proceeded to make bad choices as he became an adult and had destroyed what hope he did have of a simple, but normal life by snorting cocaine and frying his brain cells until the bare minimum was left. Not a pillar of society, but not an oddity either. There are more out there than you think, trust me on this one. I was helping this individual get his groceries into his apartment and taking care of rent issues for him. As I was coming out of the apartment building, I fell coming out of the front door of the foyer.
I was seriously hurt, but couldn't leave my car and be transported by ambulance, it is not a good neighborhood. I drove myself to my office, which was empty - outside social workers are rarely at their desks. And then drove myself to the Emergency Room. I left with a sprained right ankle, sprained left foot, bruised right hand, twisted left knee, and pulled left hip. My husband had to come and get me. As I healed, it was apparent that my left knee had sustained more than twisting. I was in constant pain, no pain relievers were able to assist me.
After several doctors visits and evaluations, it was determined that I had Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, RSD for short. The prognosis is not good, hopeful or anywhere near encouraging. Essentially, you have constant burning, throbbing pain, the hair on the appendage stops growing, the nails stop growing, the temperature is different from the other appendage, it even discolors and the pain can and usually does spread. The best the doctors can offer you are either shots or anti-seizure medication. Neither of which is promised to give you complete relief or healing, but a band-aid to the pain.
Coming to terms with being in pain is one thing. Coming to terms with how it effects your life is something completely different. Everything had changed for me. Showering and getting dressed were events that I had to gear up for. Cooking for my family, grocery shopping, even going up and down the stairs were things that I had to time just right or I was in agonizing pain. My life of being a straight A student since I had returned to college a year previous to the accident was over, I could not walk the distance of the campus, I could not work any longer, gourmet cooking - a hobby I enjoyed, was over, I could not garden, ride bikes, go hiking, I had been sidelined to life.
Looking for some purpose in all of this, I watched the movie, The Secret, on Netflix. It is a documentary or rather an instructional film on finding what is the secret to life and happiness. It inspired me to look at things a little differently, to be more mindful of my thoughts, actions, and deeds. I highly recommend it to anyone stuck in a rut, discontent or a place of searching for some meaning.
A few months later, I happened to tune into the Dr. Oz show. Not a regular watcher at all, I noticed he had a faith healer on. I decided to watch the show. I was fascinated by what I heard. I have honestly never put a lot of stock into faith healers or these types of services. The skeptic in me had noted that there was never really documented proof of actual healings, someone would say their back felt better, but who really knew if they were having back problems to begin with? Not doubting, but skeptical, medical records are great proof that things have indeed improved. Dr. Issam Nemeh had several patients whom he had prayed over and these people had experienced healings. They made their records available to Dr. Oz and a team of 12+ doctors who examined the records, followed the cases and could come up with no explanations for why these people were healed of horrible ailments other than miracles. Cancer, lung diseases, fibromyalgia, and diabetes to name a few. I began to do research on Dr. Nemeh, looking for faults to be honest. Looking for scams, looking for testimonies of claiming him to be a fraud, to be something other than an authentic man of faith who had a success record of praying over people who later reported being healed. I could find nothing of the sort. Everything I found about Dr. Issam Nemeh was directed towards his humbleness that I had witness on the television show, his not professing to cure people but to have faith in God's healing powers. For hours I searched. I stopped everything that day to dig deeply and uncover some sort of negative comment, but could not. I was convinced that he, Dr. Nemeh, is authentic.
I called his office that evening, only to find that he was not taking new patients Desperate for relief from the constant pain, I purchased tickets to the soonest prayer healing service that was being held that I could. I then went to Priceline, got a fantastic deal and began looking into what I could do to make myself as ready as possible for this event. Clear up emotional, mental and physical stressors was what was on my agenda for the next month. In short, take care of me. It was not an easy task to undertake. But step by step, I did get everything cleared up before I hit the ground in Chicago.
The first day I arrived at the healing service, not really certain on what I had truly expected to witness. The skeptic in me was observing people coming in. The constant was the pain, suffering, desperation, and hope as each person held on to their ticket, making their way into the ballroom that had been reserved for the healing. I entered the room and took my seat. Shortly thereafter, Dr. Nemeh came to the podium, offered a prayer, then gave a short talk on his beliefs, his faith, and then answered questions from those in attendance. After all questions were answered, an assistant assured everyone that they would indeed have their time of prayer, please be patient, prayerful, and remain an attitude of reverence while waiting your turn. Soft music began to play, and people were called forward in a very systematically orderly fashion.
While I waited, I watched children, and those in wheelchairs go first. I noticed different responses from different people, I heard some testimonies from people whom Dr. Nemeh had prayed over previously and their remarkable experiences of healing. I went up when it was my turn, so hopeful that I would be healed from the ringing in my ears, my 16 year old Bells Palsy and RSD. The doctor came, laid his hands on my and I truly felt a moving experience. I felt a huge wave of nasuea come over me, and for the first time in my 34 years of Christian life, I was slain in the spirit. I rested in that cradling, warm embrace for awhile. I then got up and returned to my seat. I sat for the rest of the service watching the doctor pray. I could still hear my ears ringing, and my knee was still burning, so I had hope for my face. I got back to the car, pulled down the visor and saw that there was no difference. I was a disappointed, honestly. But, I knew I had the ticket for the following day. Again, the skeptic strikes, always have a plan B in case plan A doesn't work out.
The next day, I arrived at the service just before it began, and was able to meet with Dr. Nemeh personally before we entered the room. He told me that my face looked better, and I told him, thank you, but I didn't notice much difference. He said "give it time, you will see." Then I told him about my RSD and he said, "Oh, no problem, we will fix that today, you remind me when I pray over you." That day, I watched pray over a man with chronic emphysema, hooked up to oxygen and hydrogen tanks, who could not stop coughing, and then man ceased coughing. I witnessed him praying over a woman whose spine was so bent over she walked as if she was still sitting, as he prayed over her, her spine straightened out. Then, it was my turn again. The doctor looked at me and said "Are you ready?", I said "Yes", and again, I was slain in the spirit. He walked away and then came back and prayed again. I rested but a moment this time. I got up from the floor and a loud pop came from my knee. Like a balloon being popped with a sharp pin. I looked at my knee and did not notice anything different.
I walked to my car, pulled down the visor and noticed that my face was a little better, not perfect, but it was a little better. I was very tired and wanted to go back to my hotel room to take a nap. As I began driving, I became lost, a very normal event for me during the course of this trip. I checked the GPS on my phone and noticed that I was 10 minutes away from the Chicago Arboretum and decided to go. "I can hobble around for a long time", I told myself ," they don't close until 9, I can do this". I parked the car and ate some lunch, then began walking. That is when I noticed that my leg didn't hurt. Not at all. I decided to try steps, no problem! I tried inclines, my arch nemesis during the last 363 days. NO PROBLEM! Well, if you go up, you have to go down, and I did. I walked fast, I walked slow, I walked until I my feet ached and I had blisters. I could walk without my leg hurting! It was a miracle!
I drove back to the hotel and called my family - "I CAN WALK!!" I was so excited, I had some cheese and crackers for dinner, eating at the counter in my hotel room, balancing first on one foot, and then on the other. I couldn't stand it anymore, I had to go for another walk. I put on my sneakers and power walked up and over the overpass by the hotel and then another half mile before I turned around and did it all over again. My leg didn't hurt! No burning, no throbbing, no pain. None. I pranced around in some platform shoes that I had purchased in anticipation of my healing in my hotel room while I packed that night.
My family, my neighbors, my friends who have watched me for the last year were amazed when I came home and they have seen me walking. I praise God for the healing, and thank Dr. Nemeh for his faithfulness to pray without ceasing.
God is still in the miracle business. We need to share our stories and proclaim his goodness.
Wishing you peace and good health,
Cindy
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